How long does it take for scars to heal?

I don't need them to see these. The bleeding's gone down. But I still can't stop. I really hope they don't notice. This isn't their problem, only my own.

Fuck off

Don't confirm plans then break them a few fucking hours later without telling me. I called you 10 minutes before. I figured you were asleep so I called you a few more times. No answer. Went to your house. Of course, you're not there. What the fuck? I hope you have a good reason. Cuz I'm fucking pissed at you right now.

Unexpected

Answers in the variation of "yes" make me happy. Because that's what she said. [:

Girl #2

The younger one. She made me upset. But this new boy. He's turning things around a bit. I'm definitely not saying something will happen. But he's cute. And he's pretty funny. I like it.

Girls. My dad. Girls. My friends. Girls. Life.

My problems in a nutshell. She drives me crazy. They both do. I don't know what I want. I don't like anything right now. I'm just so apathetic about anything but school. Sometimes, I wonder if they care about me at all. It doesn't seem like it at all.
Oh, then there's him. I need him for money so I can't be an ass to him. I need money for DT and to help my mom. So, I have to be nice. I hate him. I wish he could go already.
It's not love, but I still hate it.
Are they real? Fuck if I know. Fuck them. But I need them.
NO!
Just kill me before I hurt someone.

My Life In A Song

RULES
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.


Are you male or female? Time Turned Fragile
Describe yourself. Detroit Rock City [that kind of makes sense]
What do people feel when they're around you? True Romance
Describe your current relationship. Miss Sobriety
Where would you like to be now? Irreplaceable
How do you feel about love? Boys and Girls [WOW!]
What's your life like? Ain't No Fun
What would you ask for if you had only one wish? Fake It....
Say something wise. Fall For You
If someone says "Is this ok?" you say: Best of Me
How would you describe yourself? Am I Ready?
What do you like in a guy/girl? All Over You
How do you feel today? Greener With The Scenery
What's the purpose of your life? Going To California
What is your motto? High [lawl]
What do your friends think of you? Cigaro [So they like my cock?]
What do you think of your parents? SOS
What do you think about very often? Hate [wow...]
What is 2+2? SOS [diff SOS]
What do you think of your best friend? Ready and Willing
What do you think of the person you like? Emergency
What's your life story? Vampire Heart
What do you want to be when you grow up? Billy's Got a Gun [LAWL]
What will you dance to at your wedding? Ghost Of You
What will they play at your funeral? Radio Ga Ga [damn, my funeral will be awesome]
What's your hobby? The Transition
What's your biggest fear? We're Not Gonna Take it
What's your biggest secret? Crank Dat Cavalry Boy [WOW}

A Girl With A Broken Heart

Love songs hang me. Couples stab me. She kills me. Make her stop. Make me stop. Make my heart stop. Just let me crawl into my own world where there is no such thing as unrequited feelings. Why do I let myself? Why do I fall for them so hard. This never happens. But I like her too much, it actually hurts. I just wanna sleep for the rest of this. Stop me before I try to fall off this world.

So I Took Another Chance

To ask another girl to dance. [: It rhymes and the chance worked out in my favor. So I have a date to homecoming now. So I'm happy for today. Things are working out well.

I Used To Be Concerned, now I'm Just Dissapointed

I've tried to convince her that what she's doing is disgusting and immature. I've told her time after time that I care about what she's doing and she still goes out there doing slutty things. I've just become disappointed in her. I've tried to talk her out of her habits but she just does not listen. She'll regret it when she's older.

When I Lose Myself, I Think Of You

She did it again. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I wanna run over there again. Make sure she's okay. I don't want to bother her.. I care about her too much. I don't know if that's good or bad. But I don't know much right now. Stop me before I go crazy.

Babygirl, Twist Away

Whenever I hear that song, I think of her. But even more important, the vice versa. When I think of her, her name, her face, it pops into my had. But not the regular Anthony Green version. It's the one she sings. With different accents on the wrong notes. And that's the one I like more. It's flawless and imperfection in one simple verse.

Step One, You Say, "We need to talk.."

I took a chance. again. It didn't work out. But oh well.

Baby Girl

Dear Anonymous, I think about you sometimes. But not in a romantic way. I just think of how you helped me. I thank you so much for what you've done. I wanna talk to you more often. You were a big part of my life.

Dear Anonymous, I hate you. Simple as that. I'm not going to miss you. not even a little.

Dear Anonymous, Just because I like other people doesn't mean I don't love you. I think I'll always love you. Probably because I haven't loved anyone else before. I've realized we'll probably never be together again and I'm okay with that. But I do still love you.

Dear Anonymous, I used to have a crush on you. But now, I just think of you as a friend. Though, we're hardly that. We don't talk very often. If I see you, I don't say hi. But whatever. I'm not going to make an effort with someone who makes none.

Dear Anonymous, Oh god. I like you. A lot. I'm sure you know. Sometimes, I wonder if you feel the same or if you're just flirty. I really think we could work. I don't know if you just don't like me or if it's her. I really like you two together... She just kind of treats you badly and it makes me upset. I hate knowing that you're crying about someone who should make you happy.

Dear Anonymous, I can't really tell if you dislike me or not. We hang out, but you don't talk much. Sometimes I wonder if you're mad at me because she said no to you.

Dear Anonymous, Thank god you don't say anything when I see you in the halls. I know you hate me, the feeling's mutual. But see, you hate me for no reason. But whatever, that's your deal.

Taste The Poison On Your Lips....

They break up. She's crying. I want to die.

Hearts Burst Into Fire

Great. They're fighting again. I hate it. She cries to me and there's nothing I can do about it. I want to help so badly. I really care about her happiness. There's only a few people who I can honestly say that about... I need to talk to her tomorrow.

You Keep On Sucking Me, Sucking Me In

Of course, as soon as I stop thinking about YOU, SHE starts making me like her more. God. I hate flirting with someone I have no chance with... She makes it so hard. Save me? I can't hide away in school. She's there too.

Jeez, I haven't blogged in forever...

And it's not a good blog.. I'm just upset, which is rare nowadays. But of course, we talk again and I fall in love all over again. Like I ever fell out of love? It's been a year. Why can't I get over this? My advice: never fall in love.  At least I had someone to talk to.. Thanks, Al. I just wish everything would be over. Maybe school will help....