What am I doing?

I waste my time with other guys and girls, thinking that maybe I can fall in love again. I'm wasting my time and my life away with you. I date random people who I have very small interest for and end up dumping them less than a month later. I try to distract myself from you and it never works. I love you, you love him, he's just a dick. You've fallen for that and I know you can't help it. I just wish you could get away from the trap he's holding you in. I want you to find someone - anyone - who treats you like how you deserve to be treated. I don't care if it's me as long as they make you happy. I'll still move there if you want me to. That's always been in my plan. If you don't - tell me. I'll cross it out in a second. I'll move halfway across the Earth. You're my biggest weakness. Tell me to do something and I would. I'd kill someone for you, dear. And I've run out of options. I almost considered suicide. That's been decided against but I don't know what to do. I love you. I love you. I love you. I don't know what I'm supposed to. What do you want?! I'm going crazy. Lock me up. Put me in the asylum. It'd be the best for us.