Bitch

That's exactly what you are. A stupid, lying, fucking drama-queen bitch. All you do is start rumors and cause drama. You're so immature. I seriously feel like killing you sometimes. When you're not talking shit, you're talking about sex. You're not even sixteen yet! I don't care that he's the only one. It's 24/7 and that's stupid for a 15 year-old. You're pathetic and for right now, I don't even want to speak to you.

I've Come To The Realization

That I crave love. I guess so does everyone. But I so desperately want to love and be loved. Every second of everyday. Unconditionally. I think about it all the time. Will I fall in love again? Soon? Or years from now? I realize I'm still young and I probably shouldn't even know what love is. But I have. And I want to again. I almost need to.

But I fear it just as much. I fear the commitment. The devotion. The drama. What happens with heartbreak? Will I be able to go through that again? It was so hard last time. It took me almost two years to mostly get over it. I'm so scared to fall in love again. So much that I've sabotaged every relationship afterwards until now. I'm not good at protecting myself. I'm always gonna get hurt. But that hard... I don't know.

I'm just confusing myself so much. And I don't know what to do. Well, I have a clue. But I'm just a moron. I'll probably fuck this up. So in advance, I'm sorry.

I Might Just

Freaking attack you. I loooove being with you and cuddling with you. Not to mention, your hugs are amaziing. But there's always something bothering me. You're so nonphysical. I'm not frustrated with you. Just the situation. We kiss only a few times each time we hang out. I'm just so not used to it... It confuses me. I'm not asking for sex or anything, no way. But... damn. I've never had someone so nonphysical. Boy, you confuse me. Oh so much.